Thanks to my mother for this link to Lego musicians.

Yes, I rearranged my Xanga layout.  It needed it.

I had promised a self-reflective post earlier this month.  I’ve finally composed something that isn’t TMI.  I have a tendancy to do too much backstory.  That’s despite the fact that I’ve been journaling since I was a small child, and have no doubt covered that backstory many times.

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My childhood was full of mental and emotional turmoil.  As I grew older, the dysfunction in my family led me to The Recurring Nightmare.  As I grew even older, I hardened my heart.  I tried to convince everyone that I wasn’t a member of humanity, but above it all.  I never really fooled myself, but I tried.  I wanted to be above the pain and pettiness of humanity. 

By the time high school rolled around I decided to have a possitive outlook.  I unthawed my heart, and tried to be the best person I could be.  I became a peer leader within my parish’s teen program.  I joined over half a dozen school organizations.  By the time college came around, I was actually capable of dating (as brief as that was). 

Then I took a job with a media clipping organization.  I’ve always enjoyed keeping up with current events, so the job seemed a no-brainer.  But being bombarded with the pain and anguish of humanity on a fulltime, daily basis was too much for me.  I was either going to become depressed or go mad, so I just shut off my emotional connection to the world again.  It was the only way to watch tsunami and earthquake disasters, genocide, chauvenism, et cetera and maintain my mental health.  If you can call that healthy…

After I left that job, it took a long time to regain my connection to the world again.  And to be honest, I’ve hidden from pain so much in my life I’m no longer sure when I do feel pain if I’m feeling too little or too much.

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I couldn’t agree with this quiz more.  I do take life a little too seriously.  Not so much as I once did, thanks to a little help from my friends…

Metaphysical Block your blockage: 7% sexual 11% emotional 50% metaphysical

You think too much, take life a little to seriously, and as you can see from this handy illustration, that gets in the way of you enjoying yourself. Take it easy. Let the good times roll. Give peace a chance. Yes, try living life like a great classic rock song. Then you get the pie.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 4% on sexual You scored higher than 4% on emotional You scored higher than 80% on metaphysical

Link: The Brain Impedance Test written by staff_robot on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

“Great things are done by a series of small things brought together.” ~Vincent Van Gogh

I had no idea people used YouTube to advertise until my friend George forwarded his advertisement for Team Bias.

I have a self-reflective post and a DarkCon 2007 review floating around in my head which I’ll post here eventually. 

B & I saw Curse of the Golden Flower on Civil Rights Day.  Wow!  A definate must see. 

It’s been raining these past few days.  Friday, I arrive at work and one of my coworkers says to me, “I thought you’d take the bus today.”  I was astounded.  After six plus years, you’d think he’d know me better.  I love the rain.  I always ride to and from work in the rain.  And this week’s rain has been the best:  steady, but not soaking.  If I don’t have to wear a different set of shoes home than I rode to work, that’s excellent in my book. 

Admitably, Saturday was a bit painful.  I had a blowout in my front tire on the way into work, and with the rain the bike just slid out from under me at the same time.  I slid down the asphalt of the street like a slip and slide, and the left side of my neck still hurts.  I did laundry yesterday, and the asphalt stains didn’t come out, so it looks like I’ll have to use bleach. 

I’ve been watching the first episode of The Morning Show with Mike & Juliet.  It was decent, for the kind of show it is.  I think the friendship between the hosts is more real than between Regis & Kelly, their main competition.  As I don’t really watch such shows, that’ll probably be the last I see of them.  However, if you like shuch shows, I encourage you to give them a chance.  They do an excellent job, and would definately watch them over Live with Regis & Kelly if given a choice. 

Earlier this month I also took the time to listen to the first episode of Ankarlo Mornings.  Darrell Ankarlo is a conservative talk show host who actually shows respect to folks on all sides of an issue, something few conservative hosts are capable of.  The sad thing is most conservative hosts claim to be Christian, then fail to act like it.  Ankarlo actually seems like the real deal.  And that’s something to appreciate in the media.  He’s no Pat McMahon or Tony Femino, but he’s a good addition to the News 92.3 KTAR schedule.  I’ll probably listen occassionally over time, even if I won’t be a regular listener.

The new Chuy’s on Greenway has finally opened.  They closed down the one on Bell and have changed that to another kind of bar/restaurant by the same owners.  I like the new restaurant, as have my friends and family.  I’ll try to remember to review it soon. 

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you’re easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you’ve never met anyone who’s like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

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2007 could look to be a bleak year, if one was pessimistic.  My grandparents are starting to change their talk from positive preparation for the inevitable to dejected near-embrace of the inevitable.  It’s beginning to wear on my mother and uncle.  When you start to lose will to live, it’s a slippery slope.  When those around you aren’t strong, what’s to stop you from falling?

Then we have my water leak.  It’s been patched, but I’ve been warned that my house probably won’t be worth scrap in a couple of years.  So I’ve got an option to sell it as junk soon to get enough money for another downpayment or live here long enough to have it fall apart and pay to have someone dispose of its corpse.  Obviously, I’m going to see about getting a second opinion after the convention.  I was happy to have this place paid off.  I don’t want to enter the mortgage game again. 

But hey, I’m physically healthy.  I’ve got great friends and family.  I have a steady job that I enjoy.  I’m working on improving my prayer life.  I’ve been clearing the house of clutter.  I certainly have it better than most in this world, that is for certain.  How can I not thank the Lord for all of that? 

Well, as the title implies, I should already be in bed.  I pray that everyone have a blessed 2007.  Good night.

I’m starting to think these polls are rigged as I scored as Obi-Wan again…

You scored 6 Boba Fett, 6 Darth Sidious, 73 Obi-Wan, and 33 AnakinSkywalker!

If you scored Boba Fett your personality is basically all about money and nothing else matters, unless it could help gain you more money. If you scored Darth Sidious your personality is all about power to rule over everything else, you have no friends, only pawns and enemies. If you scored Obi-Wan your personality is loyal to your friends, and want to everything to be good and on your side (the light side). If you scored AnakinSkywalker your personality is all about love and selfishness, everything is good as long as everybody is on your side. Congradulations! You have finally completed this senseless test, oh, and sorry to all the ladies, but I hope to create a female Star Wars character test in the future. Of course, if you liked/disliked the test let me know, and have any suggestions on improving it also let me know. Hope you had fun, cause I sure didn’t! LOL!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on Boba Fett You scored higher than 0% on Darth Sidious You scored higher than 87% on Obi-Wan You scored higher than 22% on AnakinSkywalker

Link: The who in Star Wars are you? Test written by DarthKull on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

“The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.” ~Abraham Lincoln

Currently Reading
Welcome the Light:  Daily Devotions for Advent
By Joyce Rupp, OSM
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Of all the famous Scrooges, Carl Banks’s Scrooge McDuck is one of the tops. 

My “Currently Reading” listing, Welcome the Light:  Daily Devotions for Advent, has been of great help to me this Advent season.  It speaks to my pride and self-denial issues, and hopefully I’ll let it help me grow more mature.  As my grandmother gets worse, I’ve been spending a lot more time over there.  It’s really opening my eyes as to where I get my various possitive and negative traits.  Of course, I read somewhere once that our negative traits are really just our possitive traits made sinful. 

I have a lot I want to journal out and not enough time.  Mental prayer will have to suffice.  Otherwise I’ll be on no sleep all week at work, which would be bad this time of year in retail.

Of course I’ve never seen any of the movies I supposedly match.  *shrug*

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy – your life appeals to a select few. But if someone’s obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

“The spirit, the will to win, and the will to excel are the things that endure.” ~Vince Lombardi

How did the dunce cap originate?

I’ve been noticing a rather unflattering side of me lately, where immediately after saying or doing things I shouldn’t I catch myself.  I’ll be all shocked that I said or did the particular thing, and rather want to take it back.  What happened to humility?  I desparately need it back, and when I pray for it I find it hard to fight through my pride to ask for that help.  It’s very frustrating.  I feel like I’m losing my relationship with the world and with the Lord as a result.