Tuesday 6 March 2007
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Rationalization
I was all psyched to go through with my plan. Debbie and Sheila had both given me the green light. The day of the festival arrived, and I was still all psyched. Then, just before the roving flower salespeople walked by Bill had to go and ruin everything for me.
Oh, he didn't mean to do so. Don't get me wrong. He was actually doing what he thought was right for me, and so I can't really be upset with him. That's just his nature. He was pushing for me to court Twig at the festival, and when I balked at it he then tried pushing Lisa and I together. That just annoyed the hell out of both of us. So, from that point on, anything I was going to do became tainted by his actions and I had to back off of my plan.
Of course, once the ladies had pushed us away, he was right back at it again. Pushing me to attempt to court Twig, despite the fact that her faire personae would obviously be only a little like her real self. Despite the fact that it would be inappropriate. Despite the fact that I'm not interested.
I like fae. Franjean and Rool were my favourite characters in Willow. I like to play fae characters in FRPGs, such as Amrak the windling illusionist in Rusty's Earthdawn campaign. I had Flower Faerie checks before my current set of Path to the Dark Side checks. Many of the art pieces I have purchased at conventions have been fae. So, of course, when I saw Twig I was floored. She does an amazing job at her role. I love to just watch her. It's awesome. But that's it. I'm not interested in her romantically. In fact, I think that would ruin some of the charm of her character. Sure, I wouldn't turn down the chance to get to know her as a real person, but it would have to be outside of the context of the festival. So that's a likelihood that's minimal at best. And I'm fine with that. We can't befriend the world.
He's talking of hooking me up with some tall woman that he knows. Hello, I'm not interested in hook ups! If he pushes it, perhaps I'll meet her. It can't hurt to meet someone. Perhaps I'll make a new friend, perhaps not.
I rarely find myself emotionally interested in people. I can count the number of them for my whole life so far on one hand. So, I'm not likely to let myself have any rest until I exhaust all possibilities with Lisa.
When the guys and the ladies had regrouped, and we headed for home, I discovered that Lisa had taken Bill's comments as flirtation with her. I had taken it differently, that he was trying to push the two of us together. Either way, it certainly hasn't endeared him to her. It wasn't a complete wash, as Lisa encouraged me to give her a call. Previously, I had only been invited to email her.
Life can seem so complicated, when it really is not.
Isn't it emasculating enough to be called, "Ma'am," on the phone all the time? Now I get this result:A Femme Fatale!
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