I had forgotten what it's like.  Ever notice that God allows things to happen when and where you least expect?  Of course, my insecurity is kicking in at high gear, making me worry about everything I say and do.  To quote Fr. Thomas Connery in Lenten Light:  Reflections and Prayers, "I can't.  God Can.  Let God."  I pray that alot lately.  Of course, I've always had a problem with letting go of my self-control.  It's easier prayed than done.