Wednesday 26 February 2003
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So my grandmother sends me her usual spam chain letters with inspirational messages, only this time she sends the same one which is 204k four bloody times! I've told her before I don't participate in chain letters. It was a cute parable about the crosses we bare in life. It had sweet animated graphics. But it was four copies of the same thing! Enough really is enough. *sigh* At least she means well. I can't say that about the rest of humanity. And in the end she imparted this very important E-mail lesson: FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
Then there's this uncredited article my mother sent me:
TODAY'S TRIVIA TIDBIT: According to a 1997 poll, the average person in the U.S. has felt compelled to see the movie Star Wars an astonishing 6.7 times since its 1977 release, either in theaters or on TV.
and this link that my step-father sent me. It all makes me wonder if its worthwhile having E-mail at all.
Of course, the real reason I'm so annoyed is that I'm stressed. And its easier for me to take that stress out on others. So that's why I'm complaining here rather than directly at them. It's not them. It's me. I'd rather vent my frustrations here in the safety of the printed word rather than cause hurt feelings in the real world.
God grant me the strength to muddle through.
I always feel like everyone wants a piece of me. Do I ever get anything in return? Oh sometimes I get the satisfaction of knowing that I've helped others. But when people take advantage of my giving nature, that stresses me. Add to that the incredible money pit my house is becoming and I just want a vacation from it all. Unfortunately there's someone throwing it all in my face again every friggin' day.
God grant me serenity.
So I gave up and finally watched a Hulk trailer on CountingDown.com. It looks like it might me good. We'll have to see how they portray Brian Banner. It could be good. I hope its good. I wish I could have seen at least one of the trailers on the big screen. Everyone else who saw Spider-Man and Daredevil did. Is it some big cosmic conspiracy?
I forgot all about our store meeting tonight. I got to work and saw it listed on the calendar. Oops! Luckily, our president gave me a lift home afterwards. We covered a lot of important issues which have built up since our last store meeting in October. I won't bore you with the details here.
Tomorrow, Wayne wants to have dinner at YC's Mongollian Wok at Metrocentre. I don't really look forward to riding around Metro at night in the rain. But its probably best that I don't let myself get caught in the trap of isolation and depression.
Ugh. They've officially voted me to be the Program Chair for CopperCon XXIII. And I still don't want the job. Lucky me.
Luckily, I still have my God and my cats who love me. In the meantime, here's a double punch of fey quizes. Dragons and fey have always been my favourite fantasy species. You might notice a theme in my fey personalities. Funny how that theme is right now causing me so much stress in the real world. But like stacinator says, "Amazing how a little perspective helps one gain clarity!!" It's time for me to go get some perspective.
Congratulations, you're a Chi Spirit, a household helper.
What kind of female faerie are you?
Take the female faerie quiz by Paradox.
Congratulations, you're a Brownie, a household helper.
What kind of male faerie are you?
Take the male faerie quiz by Paradox.
Comments (8)
You ever thought of priesthood? Just thought I'd ask. You seem to have strong devotion to the Mass and I sense you are searching for your niche in life. I could be off.
Paul, cheer up! Just think, complete strangers like me read your deep thoughts and as cheesy at it might sounds, sometimes I offer up a prayer for you. I know prayer works. Therefore, your written vent works, because it solicited a prayer from me.
And if that doesn't help, go back and watch those crazed singing cats again. I had to turn it off before my coworkers caught what I was looking at. Another bad thing about reading xanga logs at work.
As for the priesthood, hey we certainly need more priests. My dad went to Seminary for a while. Selfishly, I'm kind of glad he didn't stick with it. That reminds me of the latest issue of The Uncanny X-Men. Hm, maybe I'll go vent about that over on my xanga site.
Keep your chin up! Hey, when life gets you down, just think: You can pick your friends. You can pick your nose. But you can't pick your friend's nose. Well, maybe you should stick to my wife's more poignant and applicable words of wisdom and disregard mine!
Ah, if I only had a nickle for everytime someone asked me if I've considered the priesthood, I'd never want for money again. Ever since I was a kid people would ask me if I was going to be a priest (or sometimes a monk) when I grew up. Being asked by someone in the seminary makes me cringe for some reason. And its not something I even feel comfortable thinking about, much less praying about.
Ah, yes. Let the rain distract me from that train of thought. That very scarey train of thought which I've not enough courage to discover why its so scarey.
Thanks for the prayers. They've helped. Since asking God for some assistance, people have offered to help me with this Program Chair thing. Maybe I can make it. Another.com extended my account an extra fourteen days. Hopefully I'll have enough money left from my next check to renew it.
Wow! That rain sure is coming down hard. I hope we can dig ourselves out of our drought during this El Nino year.
We'll this was supposed to just be a reply, not a whole new post. I'll update my life events tomorrow night if I can. Thanks again for your prayers and insights!
Currently Playing: Demon Knight soundtrack (on shuffle)
Count your nickles wisely. It is a great blessing to be recognized as someone capable of even contemplating the role of priest in their life. I did not have any such blessing until after I had realized for myself that I might have the right character. Only then did people stop to say, "yeah, you might be good at that." God calls us all to different walks of life. I didn't recognize mine until my third year after high school. It was then that I first comprehended that I could maybe give my life entirely up to God in a way that I wasn't yet comfortable with at the time. Four years later, I am finishing my last semester of college and planning on attending Major Seminary in the fall. I wouldn't have gotten here without prayer and surrender.
Thanks for replying. It wasn't the easiest question to answer, I'm sure. - In Christ...FD
**hugs Paul** If I can help you with CopperCon in any way, please let me know.
And hang in there, man. I know exactly how it feels to be taken advantage of, and for many of the same reasons. But there are too few of people like you out there, so don't stop being you, kay?
No, it was not the easiest question to answer. You've got that right. I must confess that my major stumbling block in faith is my desire for control of myself. I do not surrender myself well. It's what has kept me from falling to peer pressure many times in life. But it is also what has kept me from full participation in God's plan for me. Many times I have seen how my fear of surrender has prevented me from doing his will.
The fact that you were not comfortable with the idea, and that you, frdangerous, still chose to follow God's call says much of you. I admire that.
And thank you, kreleia, for the hug, empathy, encouragement, and offer of help. I could definately use you. Just let me know what your availability is pre-con and at-con. Staff that work a total of twelve hours at-con for CuCon23 get compensated by getting a free membership to CuCon24. As I need things pre-con, I'll no doubt discuss them here in my weblog as well.
I have enjoyed the definition of FAMILY in Lilo & Stitch: "No one gets left behind."
-Brian
Yeah, that was an awesome movie. I would hope all families aspire to that definition.
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