Moon River....*sigh*  I love watching Breakfast at Tiffany's.  Well, I always dislike the party scene as I have had the misfortune to attend such dreadful parties before.  I dislike people when their drinking, drugging, whatever.  I might like the companionship at other times, but parties such as in the movie offer me nothing.  I guess it's too real for me.  The rest is so incredibly romantic.  Two people meet, become friends, and eventually find true love.  How can that be bad? 

I've never been much of one to find heroes or crushes in celebrities.  But back in college my best friend felt it was absolutely mandatory that everyone have celebrities with whom they would want to be romantically or lustily involved.  I eventually caved in and named Audrey Hepburn simply because of her role in this movie.  Anytime she or anyone else would ask such a question I'd answer Audrey Hepburn.  I've done that for years now.  It's kind of a cop-out, but if people don't believe that it's possible to live your life without stars in your eyes so be it. 

Maybe it's the nurturer in me that loves that movie.  Most people who know me long enough know that I get my greatest joy from helping others reach their goals.  In a way it's rather odd, as it means that I have few real goals of my own.  Holly sure would be a project!  The kind of project that would be challenging enough that I would take her on in a second, if allowed.  Heck, that's how I got involved in conventions!

I remember Billy and Kitty talking about how it'd be great to get conventions back on track, get them to be events people wanted to attend.  The kind of events that they themselves wanted to attend.  But as always, this was going to be one of those conversations where people talk-the-talk, but don't walk-the-walk.  I hate to see people not achieve their dreams and ambitions, so I pulled out a whiteboard and started making them really think about what they were discussing.  After a while we had some values and goals mapped out, and a plan to achieve them.  And look where we are now.  The three of us have added a few more to the ranks, and we've successfully run local convention programming for the last several conventions.  Most of the complaints people have had about convention programming have been addressed.  We're consistently asked to run programming, and even the Farrs seem interested in utilizing our team when they run programming for LepreCon XXIX. 

Larry Vela is going to chair LepreCon XXXI, and he's asked me a few times if I want a committee position for that convention.  I've told him I'll take whatever no one else will take, but he seems more interested in giving those of us on the team first choice.  And this is where I run into the problem.  Unlike Billy and Kitty, whose dream was to fix or replace local conventions, I don't have a personal dream or goal when it comes to local conventions.  I'm just along for the ride because I was the catalyst.  A committee position might appeal to some, but it's all the same to me if I'm just an attendee.  I like the ability to shape what happens, but I don't need or desire it.  I suspect that at some point I'll just pick something at random.  I hope that I don't, because then I'm not likely to enjoy it.  He asked me again last night, and he still wants me to choose something.  I guess I just don't feel qualified for anything at committee level when it comes down to it.  Of course, people less qualified than I have run things.  I guess Larry could do worse.  I just don't think people should do things unless they have a passion or desire to fuel their actions.  I'd have some fuel if I felt I was helping out where no one else would.  But I don't really have a passion for any of the committees themselves. 

*sigh*  And on that note, as I've gone from a romantic sigh to a defeated sigh, I'll bid my Internet following, "Bon soir!"